I did wrote about this in my many blogs about my health .Starting from my childhood I was sick a lot ,more then others children ,I was absent in school a lot , i was the sick child.
I did not like it staying home ,when others were in school ,i really want to be like everybody else and enjoying childhood like everybody else .Nobody really could not figure out why I was sick a lot ,…and the doctors keep saying to my parents that she will grow up from this ….
Today i can see how I form a relationship with being healthy and being sick,formed big polarity with in this.
So when I was healthy I want to do everything ,i want experience everything in this moment ,because I never new when I be sick ,and when again this slow me down ,so within this experience I formed personality of being in hurry ,yes ,I need to speed up ,because of the unknown time ,of not knowing how long I will be healthy .
Even later I did pick up a profession ,to be close with the subject of health .The first thing what I notice to meet anybody is the point of health or sickness ….and even observing the nature …this is the first thought in my mind ….,so with in this construct i would like to take a responsibility :
1.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to be in constant fear for my health , to always be an look out what can be wrong with in my body …..and yes I experience the poor health ,but with the mind taking over I often do luck simple physical steps to support my body .
2.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself ,to see Life in this physical reality only from a perspective of HEALTH or SICKNESS ,which is so limited , and within this limit my experience of everything and everyone .
3.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself ,to luck simple or not simple actions points to support my body ,instead of dwelling on points of fear .
4.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself, to be the primary force of my life - this fear for my health ,which I did create my reality on this .
5.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself, to feel myself with all kinds of informations about health and sickness ,not sorting out this info ,but automatic go for this tremendous fear .
6.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself,
to experience Life on this fear ,to be on this edge all the time and because of this to want to speed up my experience ,to allowed those feelings direct me with anything I do .
7.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to be in panic if I do experience problems with my health ,to go with the mind projection ,What if ????scenario …..and compounding this more and more .
8. I forgive myself to accept and allowed ,myself to be angry on my body for being week ,to be angry on my parents ,to blame my parents for not helping me out with my health when I was a child in more natural way ,only put my health in the hands of the doctors
( and we all know how rarely is to find a good practitioner ,who really care ….)
9 .I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself, to really not trusting Me , to never stop and see thru objective eyes my problems with my body .were I could support my body more .
10.I commit myself to stop this Fear of losing my health ,to stop this fear of sickness ,instead to slow down ,to write simple steps how can I support myself ,my body to function to be at most potential,To sit and write what kind food I can add to my system (within the blood type …) to have add more beneficial nutrients to my body.
11.I commit myself to fallow to the every point my naturopathy doctor prescribe to me in order to be in better health.
12.I commit myself to stop judging every little points what i notice in my body ,instead breath and see objective the situation in hand .
13.I commit myself to work on 4 count of breathing to support my body .
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